Blog Post

It's a great Saturday

Posted by: Felissa M. Garcia
February 28, 2009
Topic: My Daily Personal Life, by Felissa M. Garcia

I can say that just a few months ago I really used to dread the weekends. I would get bored and get anxiety because I wasn't at the office taking care of stuff. Now, I really look forward to my weekends. I see them as a time to catch up on all my personal errands, spend some quality time with my family, and just be able to sit down and read which is one of my most favorite things to do.

Yesterday I had a bunch of tests done on me and one of them was on my eyes because I needed new glasses. The ones I had been wearing were like 5 years old and I hadn't changed my prescription. So I decided that instead of getting new glasses, I was going to have my vision corrected for about the same price. They ended up doing the surgery yesterday and today, I am in awe and schock that I can see again without my glasses. Can you imagine how much money that's going to save me in buying glasses for the rest of my life? Anyway, what is the most exciting part of this is that for over 30 years I have wanted to be able to see again and now I can! I am overjoyed and there are no words to describe my joy. I'm sitting here in my sitting room with the picture window and watching some beautiful birds eating out of a birdfeeder I have just outside the window. They are so little and fragile. What a wonderful feeling knowing that we feed those beautiful wild birds.

I had to sleep all day yesterday because of the eye surgery and all the other tests they ran. The surgery itself was under 20 minutes. Can you believe that? But I've met and known many professionals, doctors, lawyers, etc. and I must say that the Doctor who performed this surgery ranks at the very top of the list of professionals who are respectful, have excellent bedside manner, are careful, thorough, precise and does the technical aspect of his job perfectly. Dr. Bernitsky and his staff are one of a kind. I can't imaging sending any of my dear friends or family anywhere else. And again, NO, I'm not doing a paid advertisement or anything like that here and YES I have to pay full price for my surgery. But no matter, he's the best and no matter who gives Dr. Bernitsky compliments, at least it will lead you to the best possible doctor in this area that you can find.

On Thursday, I had a very interesting session with my counselor. We talked about my inability to be close with people. When I say cloase, that means that I don't like to hug really, or be touched. There are only a frew, very few people, who I allow to hug me. These are the people I most respect and/or love in my life. I wonder why some people are like that, not being able to be close to somebody. I think it might have to do because I grew up in an environment where touch was not encouraged, and where the environment wasn't particularly a safe one in which to share hugs. I'm not putting anybody down. I love my parents and family and I know that we all did and do the very best that we can with what we have at the time. I'm just speaking "truth" here. So my work for this week and next week is learning how to be close and affectionate with my kids. I love my kids, that's not the problem, but I don't hug them often enough and I don't spend as much time with them as I would like to. The thing is that I don't have any problems hugging and loving my husband and it's probably, my counselor says, because I feel safe with him. I do feel safe with him. He takes care of me when I'm sick and he spends every possible second with me, loving me, talking with me and taking care of me. How did I get so lucky? Goodness knows I waited for him long enough. I feel in love with him in high school and we had to wait on God's time for us to get back together, over 20 years later. True that the Lord works in mysterious ways.

I did spend some good time with my 18 year old daughter Zoya today. She took me for my eye checkup while my hubby and youngest daughter went fishing. They had a blast and caught lots of fish!!!! How exciting. Then Zoya and I went for breakfast and then we came home, She has tons of homework. I'm so so so proud of her. She has been accepted in to University College London and to Durham University both in the U.K. She wants to go to London and study there so I just have to brace myself for the day she leaves. It will truly be one of the saddest days of my life. I don't know how I will be able to handle that but I'm sure you and I will still be talking so maybe you can send me your good thoughts when the time comes for her to leave. :( I would never dream of stopping her because her wings are ready to help her fly to places I never imagined I could go. That makes me so proud that you could not imagine how proud.

My eyes are getting tired looking at this tiny computer screen I do all my writing on. Dr. Bernitsky told me I have to rest my eyes so I"m gonna go do that now. I'm glad I was able to write to you today. I missed you! I'll talk to you again on Monday. Have a safe and restful weekend. Felissa